Train wreck

If you could only read my mind and see past my frivolous and jovial exterior. If you could only see what lies beneath my invincible mask. If you could only read my every thought, hear my every cry, and see the way I struggle insanely in this fight to survive.

The pressure is building, piling up incessantly, crushing me more and more... I can feel myself getting weaker and weaker. I am suffocating, drowing in this sea of extreme pressure.

I've found myself again but now I don't know where I am or what I'm doing... I don't know where I'm going or the end that I'm heading for.

I've always looked up to you as my shelter, my solace, my strength, my truth in this world of deception. But now the tables have turned, and all you do is drain me... you're draining me. I gave you my all, my whole self, my heart, my soul. But at the end of the day all this doesn't matter aymore.

I don't know how to deal with this. I'm going crazy because of you.